spin.. spin.. stop

I remember asking when I was little why the world fell on certain people's shoulders? Then I got caught in the big picture like a deer in the headlights. Ayron Raynn isn't a name that would bring up a thought about protecting the people from all of the burdens of the world. Yet, this is my life and I being the stubborn girl that I am I wouldn't trade it for a normal day. I have my family, even if it isn't the traditional family, and I love them unconditionally. Styxx and Zombie Ky are waiting for me in the vestibule at Nothin' Nite, they think that I shouldn't be sitting around pushin' papers. Being held in a room for hours on end drives me nuts. I don't lay blame anywhere but on my own shoulders, well maybe Requiem is a little at fault. I'm thinking of branching out on my own and finally getting away from the mess that well made my life exciting and fun but also made me commit social suicide, not that I had much of a social life to begin with but still. I only have a few more minutes until I can shut down and go do some off the clock hunting to get it out of my system. That way I don't roll over and accidently stab Styxx tonight, he's really starting to get wary of sleeping. It's been dangerous but it's not like I'm doing it on purpose. I mean I dream, and I don't realize that I'm physically doing anything. Oh, well it'll be mk none of the wounds are very deep anywho. Nothing he couldn't stitch up himself. I felt so bad that I cried. Thats why he's going hunting with me tonight instead of being on call for Nite.
- A. Raynn

Where to start, where to start.. Nothin' Nite as been down my throat, choking the life out of me since they found out that Styxx was living with me. They tried to reassign him but he won't work with anyone other then me. It's flattering, they should be happy.. They wanted me to have a partner and now that I've made a connection with him they told me that they were wrong and I worked better on my own. I know who told them. Sin!! Sin Evers is going to grow up or he's going to wind up with my pretty boot in an unpretty spot. He's having a temper tantrum because I'm happy, I'm with a guy who doesn't want to change anything about me. Styxx loves my imperfections almost as much as he loves Zombie Ky and my Skelanimal blanket. The only reason that Styxx hasn't killed him and made sure that there was no body left to identify is because I asked him not to. I now realize it was a really really stupid decision on my part to ask that of him. Moving on to happier topics, Sterling has a girlfriend and she's amazing. The four of us have actually been on multiple double dates and surprisingly I felt relief when I saw the way they looked at each other.
I gotta run...
- A. Raynn

Home

The past few days have been hell. I finally got around to talking to Sin and damn he was ticked. I guess I should have explained that Styxx was a friend/partner for work. After I told him that he kind of calmed down but I could still hear the aggravation in voice. Like I'd betrayed him in some sense by letting a guy I haven't known that long move in with me instead of him. He needs to start thinking properly because I know he's got a girlfriend. Anyways, Styxx has decided that he likes hanging out with Sterling and me (when I have the time to go see him which is often lately). Sterling doesn't mind, in fact they hit it off real well. Being able to see Styxx make friends, even if it is my Sterling, is awesome. Sin hasn't come around lately and I miss him a little. Styxx has more then kept me cheery though. Our relationship is becoming more then just being partners. Sterling was right I had fallen and there was no coming back. I believe that Styxx has fallen for me too. He no longer sleeps on the couch and I have my pillow back and a body to snuggle into and feel secure. I'm safe with him and I trust him not to betray me. I've fallen too fast and it's scary but when he has my back or just hugs me I know I'm right where I'm suppose to be. We saved a kitten and wound up keeping her, Zombie Ky is her name. She's a little turtle back calico with blue/green eyes. Zombie is meowing at me and Styxx is calling me to bed. Life is good for now.
~ Aryon Raynn & Zombie Ky

Not Alone

I think I've found my soul mate!! well in the violence and work related aspects of my life which takes up 19-22 hours of my life daily. Styxx is amazing in the way he effectively made my life easier and a lot more fun. I don't mind having a partner as long as it stays Styxx. I've told Sterling about Styxx and Sterling told me that I'm falling hard and fast without any reservations. I chose to ignore him; gave him a hug and kiss on the cheek and went to meet up with Styxx. Sin found out about him the hard way but that's what he gets when he shows up at my place when he knows I usually have to change at least my boots because the blades in my boots break or my shirt winds up with a rip in it. It comes with the job and he knows that. SO when he showed up outta nowhere and found a ripped hottie in my room without a shirt while I was changing in the bathroom. I walked in my room and found a fight fixing to start because neither of these guys knew why the other one was in my room. As I mentioned a few days ago Styxx didn't have anywhere to stay so I offered to let him stay with me whenever he wanted. Sin yelled at me for only a second until he saw the look on my face. I simply asked Sin why he thought it was ok to just show up on a whim. With a glare to Styxx (who had every right to be where he was) he ignored my question and asked me "who HE was". I simply told him that next time he showed up without calling he'd know to knock and not be surprised if he found a guy (who at this time was at my back ready to pounce on Sin but he still hadn't put a shirt on) in my room. I turned to Styxx and asked him to chill because it was just Sin being Sin and that I'd explain later tonight. I don't like him thinking that I'm his property because he doesn't know what he wants with me; Sin not Styxx. Needless to say Sin stormed out and told me in a very harsh tone that he would text me later to talk about this. I have a problem with authority so I doubt I'll be answering the text messages from him. Styxx finally put a shirt on and opened his mouth to apologize for the possibility of starting something with Sin. Before he could say it though I gave him a ginormous hug and told him to forget about it; Sin needed to get over himself and stop thinking that I belong to any certain person, I'm myself and I won't belong to anybody until I deem someone worthy of taking care of me. Styxx just smiled at me and then we went hunting. He's crashed out on my couch at the moment with a knife under the pillow that he stole from my bed and my skelanimal blanket. It's adorable. I've gotta get a lil sleep before our phones go off simultaneously.
-A. Raynn

Skyless

I've decided that I'm not going to kill Requiem; I'm going to torture him until I deem that he has paid his penance for sticking me with not only a newbie but a guy that barely made it through the interview process. The guy that I have to try not to kill is 6'4" and his name is Styxx. I don't know where his parents got off thinking that people would either make fun of him because of the band, the mythological Grecian river. I still haven't met the guy, he's 2 hours late; but from what I can gather from his file I'll be shocked if he lasts through the night. I had to be here early to pick up this jerk so I haven't had any sleep within the last 72 hours and I need to drop my boots off to get the blades inserted in the toe. I'm gonna call it a night, say I've been good and that he never showed.

I'm finally home after a night of work that for the first time in a long while was enjoyable. I ran into Styxx as I was leaving Nothin' Nite. Surprisingly he's good, like he's done this longer than I have. Experience is key in this job and watching him in a fight tells me that he's been trained to do this since he was born. I still don't know why he barely made it through the interview though. He's got the training, the mentality, and the determination to excel at this. We just clicked but Requiem isn't going to hear a word about anything positive. Styxx doesn't have a place of his own in town so I offered to let him crash with Sin, he didn't take me up on the offer though. I feel the need to introduce him to my guys so he'll know someone besides me and the guys at work. He seems disconnected from the world. Well I'm exhausted and I've gotta be up in a few hours.

-A. Raynn

The world from my view point

I wish Rowdy and Havyn still lived inside I miss sleeping beside them, of course you'll never hear me admit that to them they'd take it to their little kitty heads. Tater keeps getting me in trouble because Grampa doesn't believe that she would ever be bad. Just because I'm the youngest I always get blamed it makes me sad. Granna loves me even though she gets mad at me sometimes. I like to sit and hold hands with her. Momma on the other hand is my favorite, she rarely yells at me and I don't mind sharing her bed with her. Running around outside is fun especially when I get to chase Nyne. I don't like it so much when he rams his head into my tummy but I get back at him, I just can't leave any teeth marks then my momma would be mad. The only time I don't mind if Momma is mad to me when she tries to give me a bath. I despise baths, I like to play in the water outside though. After my bath she always sprays me with this stuff that makes me smell weird, she always says I smell better. I don't believe her though. I'm tired and I'm gonna go sleep on my pillow since momma's not home.

Grrz.. The groan slipped out as I rolled over and stretched. I'd forgotten what a good nights rest felt like, Sterling made a full recovery and promised never to be stupid like that again. Getting to sleep in my own bed after a month of hovering over Sterling's every breath felt so so amazing. I love the boy to death but his house was a wreck and I spent two straight days cleaning when i got there. The sky was just darkening when I gingerly threw the covers off and walked over to check the message boards from work. The newest employees were babies to the world and had no idea what they'd gotten themselves into, it's wrong to laugh but there was no stopping the laughter even after my sides started hurting. Sin has decided that we are what we are and nothing more. We are each other's safe havens. I've here for him even when he's not there for me. Nothin' Nite keeps threatening to send me overseas if I don't chill out on scaring the bubble-headed air brains. I can't help it that what they think is "normal" is revolting to every one of my senses. I've recently acquired a new pair of shiny boots that I can't wait to get modified blades in the toes. This and only this has kept me on Nothin' Nites payroll. If I'm jobless I can't buy boots with the modifications that make them perfect for myself. ^_^ They assigned me a partner even though I've always worked alone. Upsetting my life routine must be a fun for some paper-pushin'-all-talk-no-action little weasel for the record his name is Requiem. Am hoping that he was at least considerate enough that am not stuck with one of the newbies. If so I'll lose all credability with the guys as being the best of the best. It took me forever to be accepted as an equal being the only girl that talked the talked and backed up everything with precision. I have to go meet this individual that has been pulled into the sucking vortex that is my world.

-A. Raynn